Baby Blues

There are kisses every where, there are butterflies coming around. and they want to be friendly. "I have had that feeling for sometime now, My stomach feels like its butterflies swarming around. Sometimes i feel like the clock is ticking, And i don't want that. I have the baby blues. I want to have that miracle Baby girl or boy I've always wanted. And yes i even picked out the cutest baby names when i do have that miracle. Zooey for a girl and Adam for a boy. I have found out a couple months ago that my mom have told me that i was her miracle baby, I never knew that. And i am touched about it. Every time i go out, and when i wait for the bus to take me to school, or other things, I see families comes on the bus with there new born kids and kids. and i always think and say how very cute and adorable they are. I have always picture myself with my kids. I would love to have two kids, a girl and a boy. I am still with Javier, and very much in love with him. I just had my birthday 4 days ago the 1st of Oct. I am now 36. and I still don't have kids yet. But i would love to very soon. I been to the doctor today, and had my check up. and i told him how much i would love to get pregnant. and he tells me when its a good time i can try and see about conceiving and he will help me with my treatment of pregnancy. I actually want to experience that, And I will always give him or her a great home. I am looking for a new place to live with my fiance and step son. And i can't wait to be a family with him. Javier is everything i been waiting for my entire life. I have the butterfly kisses with him. He completes me. Always... I love him.